A lot has happened since the last time I blogged. Finals happened. Didn't do as well as I should've, but I passed. Last quarter was hard for me. Being away from my nina, worrying about her, not knowing what was going to happen next. I wanted to be there this summer to spend time with her, I feel this is the last summer I'll have with her. I am in Reno. My cousin needs my help. She doesn't really have anyone up here who can help her. I really don't mind. I would rather be where I am needed most then to be where i want to be.
My Nina isn't doing to well. She was in the hospital a few weeks ago with an open sore which ended up being a wound. She had a fungal infection in her tummy. She's out of the hospital now. She's not doing chemo anymore. She went in on Friday for chemo and they told her there wasn't much they can do for her. They gave her a shot to make her comfortable. I feel soon she will pass but I know she won't be suffering anymore and on that day I will be happy for that.
We went down to Fresno. I am most worried about my cousin. I know my aunt is at terms with whats happening to her but my cousins I am most worried about. They are going through this again. I wish I could be there with my little cousin. I know she needs me. She's hurting, though I know me being there with her this weekend helped her out a lot.
We started talking and it really reminded me of how i felt when my grandma was going through this. I still think about. I have been missing my Nino lately, my cousin has been thinking and missing him too. We talked about him and I pretty much told her about my grandma. We connected and she understood that I understood how she was feeling.
I know with time she'll be ok. Part of me is hoping she'll call me tell me she needs me there with her. I will be there in a heartbeat as soon as I can just for her. She means the world to me. Not just her but her dad (my cousin who I call big brother), her sister and her step mom. My aunts and my cousins in Reno as well. I can only hope and wish the best for all of us right now.
My Nina isn't doing to well. She was in the hospital a few weeks ago with an open sore which ended up being a wound. She had a fungal infection in her tummy. She's out of the hospital now. She's not doing chemo anymore. She went in on Friday for chemo and they told her there wasn't much they can do for her. They gave her a shot to make her comfortable. I feel soon she will pass but I know she won't be suffering anymore and on that day I will be happy for that.
We went down to Fresno. I am most worried about my cousin. I know my aunt is at terms with whats happening to her but my cousins I am most worried about. They are going through this again. I wish I could be there with my little cousin. I know she needs me. She's hurting, though I know me being there with her this weekend helped her out a lot.
We started talking and it really reminded me of how i felt when my grandma was going through this. I still think about. I have been missing my Nino lately, my cousin has been thinking and missing him too. We talked about him and I pretty much told her about my grandma. We connected and she understood that I understood how she was feeling.
I know with time she'll be ok. Part of me is hoping she'll call me tell me she needs me there with her. I will be there in a heartbeat as soon as I can just for her. She means the world to me. Not just her but her dad (my cousin who I call big brother), her sister and her step mom. My aunts and my cousins in Reno as well. I can only hope and wish the best for all of us right now.
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