That night I wasn’t shy. I contribute it to the fact that her friend Jen had come early and so I was able to meet her before. We had each other to lean on and talk to. We were having a good time talking and such with Erie. Then Brian came in. I was immediately drawn to him. I felt the need to know him. I felt I had become a different person. I was more outgoing, more talkative to the strangers around me. Every word he spoke every story he told I listened intently. I wanted to know him. I saw how big of a good ball he could be with his Captain Planet bit. I learned how much his sister meant to him through his pain. I learned how much he had been hurt in past relationships. It hurt me knowing how much he hurt. It stirred up the emotions and the pains that I had kept buried inside because I didn’t want to face them. Yet at that moment I wanted to understand and so I had to let go of the wall I had put up.
San Francisco the next day was just as amazing as the night before. I saw how big his heart is for his friends and the people around him. He would do anything for the people in his life. He is sincere in his gestures and expects nothing in return. Selfless he is.
After SF, we texted the whole week. I always had a smile on my face when I saw a text from him. I enjoyed his texts, the pictures of his dinner which looked oh so delicious (many times, better than my own). Then he came down for Xochitls friend’s grad party (which he was late to because he got lost) because he was going to take her home to Visalia (and I was accompanying them). The ride there was entertaining. We got burritos before we left to try some of Brian’s Ghost Chili hot sauce. OMG that was ridiculously crazy insane hot! Brian got a little confused lol. We got into Visalia at 6am. At which point we all went to sleep. Xochitl got up in the middle of sleep to sleep with her dad because she hit her elbow on the floor. Brian and I were left alone in the room. At one point we were both awake and I cuddled into him. We were just talking. It felt so calming. Like it didn’t matter what was going on around us or in our lives because everything was going to be just fine.
The car ride back was amazing, though I was in a small funk. I tried to shake it by having him talk. He told many stories of what he and his friends have done. He talked more about his sister. We danced and sang. We got dinner and ate at the park down the street from my house. We played tic tac toe before we ate, and yep that’s right I won! Lol After we finished eating we went down the slide. I had been extra clumsy that week for some odd reason and that day was no exception. He caught me a few times and kept his arm around me to stabilize me. We were almost to my house and he said, “Wait, I have to do the stretch (he stretched), yawn (he did a fake yawn), and arm over the shoulder (put his arm over my shoulder). Ya that’s how it’s done.” I said, something like aww how sweet haha to which he replied “Are you humoring me?” “Lol ya maybe.”
Our texts didn’t stop during the next week. This time there was a Scott Pilgrim reference lol He could totally take on my ex-boyfriends they got nothing on him :) I was in Fresno this past week for Vanessa’s Bridal Shower and I was going up to Reno after. I was going to stay in Fresno then head up to Reno, but Brian wasn’t having a good week. I felt like he needed a distraction, some company. I suggested I go up and we spend the day together then I could spend the next few days with my dad. Our day together was amazing! We couldn’t stop laughing. Brian is such a dork and I love it! We had lunch at this Mexican place and it was pretty good. Then we went to the movie theater to watch a movie. We decided on Bridesmaids. We had gotten there early so we watched Power Rangers Dino Thunder in his car. After the movie, we didn’t know what to do so he just drove. We stopped at Jamba Juice, he got a Strawberry Surfrider (tastes like a starburst) and I, my favorite Orange Carrot Karma mmmmm dericious in my belly. He mentioned his nephew wanted a Cars toy so we went to Target to see what we could find. We had a mini sword fight in Target, I won of course with my power of distraction lol There was an incident with bug repellant, unfortunately you can’t wear it around your neck like a car freshener. Sorry Brian! He was so excited about it too lol Well, I couldn’t see the coconut M&Ms at the register lol
We decided to watch a movie on Netflix so we went to a parking lot and tethered his phone to my laptop and we watched Revenge of the Nerds. Afterwards, he asked me to be his girlfriend :) and of course I said yes!
Yesterday I was asked why I said yes to Brian. I knew my friend was going to ask this question. He always asks the tough questions. I had thought about it before. Why do I like Brian? Why do I want to be with him? I came up with 7 reasons (there are many more but these were the main ones).
1) I'm learning from him. Learning it is ok to grieve (it may be that I'm at that time where I'm ready).
2) He brings out parts of me that I've always been afraid to show people.
3) I find myself saying things without thinking about it first.
4) He's so sweet and selfless.
5) He puts his family first.
6) The amounts of times we spent together at once there was never a moment where it was dull or felt like the silence needed to be filled.
7) Then there's this feeling that I don't know how to describe.
We still have so much to learn about each other and there will always be more. I’m falling for him hard and fast, and yet I’m not afraid of what’s ahead. I’m excited. I’m on my way to Sacramento as I am writing this(but posted after I get to Reno). I went back home after Sunday because my dad never answered his phone. I’m meeting my cousin in Sacramento to go back with her to Reno. I’m having lunch with my Brian while I wait for her. I’m happy to have less time in between seeing him. (Lunch was amazing! Every time spent with him is wonderful!)
It’s going to be difficult because we don’t live near each other and with his work schedule and me being in Reno, but I know we’ll make it work. We’ll always want to be near each other but it just make our times together much more meaningful and allows us to get to know each other on a different level. You’ll get more updates as time goes on.
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